Starting T… but then Stopping after 1.5 Months

Yes, I finally began medical transition. Right at the start of March 2021, I had my appointments with a psychiatrist and an endocrinologist. I got my gender dysphoria/incongruence letter, got my blood tests done, and then began that (oh so sweet) testosterone. It seemed like the perfect time to start T. I had a job, … Continue reading Starting T… but then Stopping after 1.5 Months →

Gender Dysphoria and Dealing With It

As a pre-T trans man, it's not easy to dodge dysphoria. I have a strong, positive mindset and attitude but even that is not a solution on its own. I keep oscillating between positive self-talk and negative dysphoric self-talk. For days, it seems as if dysphoria is gone or is no more but then it … Continue reading Gender Dysphoria and Dealing With It →

Songs- A way to discover our own self

“Music doesn't get in. Music is already in. Music simply uncovers what is there, makes you feel emotions that you didn't necessarily know you had inside you, and runs around waking them all up. A rebirth of sorts.” Matt Haig, How to Stop Time Sometimes the songs that are our favorites reflect our deepest desires, that … Continue reading Songs- A way to discover our own self →

Postponing transition?!!

Ever since I realized that I am trans, I have been saying that I'll medically transition only once I start earning. However, after 4 long years of repeating the same sentence and not feeling any urgency about it, I wonder if I am just postponing it. Many guys who want to transition want to do … Continue reading Postponing transition?!! →

Pre-transition trans man: A citizen without identity

As a 22-year-old pre-transition trans man, who looks like a 12-year-old, I haven't yet changed my name and gender legally. All my identification documents are under my old name and old photographs (when I hadn't even got a short haircut). So anytime I am asked to show my ID card, it's a very embarrassing situation … Continue reading Pre-transition trans man: A citizen without identity →

What’s in a Name?

Every time I meet new people a fear beholds me- What if they ask me my name? As a Pre-T Trans guy, things are pretty complicated. I would hate to tell them my legal name which I haven't changed yet. That's a name I can't bear to say or hear referring to me anymore. The … Continue reading What’s in a Name? →

Going through men’s security check as a Trans guy

I have to travel almost every day in the metro and since I have got a masculine haircut going through the women's security check-in metro is sometimes a debilitating scenario. I still haven't got a binder so I am usually afraid about going through the men's line, and even some friends have warned me to … Continue reading Going through men’s security check as a Trans guy →

Being Transgender : A philosophical analogy

A common concept in Indian Philosophy is that of 'Liberation'. It is known by different names such as moksha, nirvana, renunciation, etc by the different schools of Indian Philosophy. This concept is also found in various other religions of the world with certain differences here and there. The basic concept is that the person's soul … Continue reading Being Transgender : A philosophical analogy →